The intersection of life
Should I plan for my life more carefully?
Could I just follow my heart and let it be?
I just feel confused about the next step.
After the first class of AT, I was so exhausted for the schedule planned by the cram school, which means maybe I have to go there 5 days in a week.
I strongly believe that will be a progress full of fatigue and pains.
I’m not born in a rich family, so I have no heritage or legacy to spend.
Though life is filled with many entertainments, maybe I just can’t spend too many time and effort on it and I need to overcome the weakness of human’s nature.
In my opinion, life is filled with agonies.
In spite of many amusements in life, I still feel bothered by the future things.
I often try to live and think about the now things, however, I fail and I often can’t help ponder over the future.
In fact, I search for the worries by myself and I think people around me won’t do this kind of thing crazily like me.
I’m just not the one who gets satisfied easily; nevertheless, does that mean I’m a picky guy?
I admit that I’m a little bit picky for some aspects, which are important for me, but not everything, in addition, I have no desire to let this personality make me unhappy all the time.
Personality decides the fate and I acknowledge this proverb matters.
Therefore, in public, I’m willing to express the bright side of my heart, though sometimes I still reveal my dark side and bad temper.
To be honest, I have no good temper and I am not a patient guy, so that's a portion I need to correct.
Since life is very short, we shouldn’t spend too much time being unhappy, despite plentiful worries in life.
We need to focus on shallow and funny things to make ourselves cheer up.
I think the pain should be tasted alone with loneliness.
Pondering or worrying is one’s chore, so there is no need to share with others automatically, unless you’re asked to tell and you're not reluctant or you have dependable family and friends who can make you comfortable, which is my own philosophy.
As a matter of fact, I prefer to be a listener and adviser than teller because maybe it is easier to provide suggestions than to contemplate on own dilemmas.
I’m just used to hiding the deepest element in my heart, which is very common among people.
There are still some cynical elements and conservative notions of ethic in my thoughts, besides, being caustic and critical is my nature because I agree that there’s somewhat fun...
Sharing is not an easy work, so I’ll appreciate people willing to veil the secret.
Gossip is very essential in boring life, thus, I’ll try to share a little bit bravely and make life colorful.
However, timid hiding is still necessary because people always have lows.
There’s too many dramas in life, so who can always pick the truth up correctly?
C’est la vie.
Just try to live happily and cultivate adorable characteristics.
Being a little bit spontaneous can make life more relaxing.
No rigid routines and rules and just try to make efforts!
I'll try my best to hide the negative thoughts and be more positive to beat the obstacles in front of me.
But I still hate aggressiveness! Why so serious?
The earth doesn't revolve around self-centered people.
I just want to live in the world with relaxation and leisure and without too much pressure.
I hope my idea can work and let me be as optimistic as I can!
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